HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!

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Today is Mom’s birthday, she is 96 years of age and there doesn’t seem to be any real sense of celebrating. She lies in her hospital bed and can’t move her body, her right side is frozen from two strokes and her left side is very weak. She can’t see very well and can’t hear well either, her body is shutting down.

If you look at her you wonder what she is feeling, having no control over her own self, no plans, and knowing that the days are nearing an end. Her children try to avoid the truth, bringing her attention and bits of conversation, which she listens to. Her brain is in tact, still very much functioning and reasoning very well. She too is waiting for God to call, we all wonder just how busy he must be that she has this little bit of Hell here on Earth in her closing years?

There was a movie I saw when I was college about this English soldier who was lying in a hospital bed wounded. His eyes are bandage since an explosion by an artillery shell blinded him. In this movie he keeps thinking and you as a viewer can hear what he is thinking.

First he learns that he is blinded for life, afterwards he realizes he has no feet and legs, and finally no arms. You suffer the horrific revelations with him, and start to feel the sense of desperation that you will live this horror for the long rest of your life!

That sense is what Mom must be feeling, unable to even lift a spoon, needing assistance is putting it mildly, she needs total care in all phases of her life.

If living a long life means that the end is like Mom’s, then I don’t want it. I am hoping for something I NEVER thought I would ever hope for, the end for Mom. I feel she has no quality of life, there is nothing for her, but there is her children who can talk to her, give her solace and pray for her. We will not abandon her: we would suffer for her if we could.

Mom had a miserable life especially as a child, her father abandoned her and her 2 younger sisters and her mom. I hope she has had rewards sufficient enough for her to be recompensed.

HAPPY? BIRTHDAY MOM?

Love your children